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The great inspiration of this Northern Country.

Scotland is a relatively small place. It's about the size of one of our mid-sized states. I would look up all the facts, but I'm on a train with no internet. About 5 million people live in Scotland. The funny thing about this fact is that about 50% - 60% of the people live in a belt that goes from the West of Scotland (Around Glasgow and the Clyde River) to Edinburgh (in the East). The rest of the country is relatively uninhabited. This information is meaningless.

So please pray for me. I'm applying to the University of Edinburgh tomorrow. I've got the application done and I'm sending it in tomorrow. Well I'm actually turning it in by hand. If this works, it'll mean that I'll be in Scotland for another year, which I a very excited about. I want to do things here, but it doesn't seem like there is enough time, and I'm not sure there is. What is the point of starting something to leave before it even gets off the ground. That might cause more harm than good, which is not what I intend to leave in my wake.

More than ever, nowadays, I believe in the sovereignty of God. This means that I believe that God is in control. Actually in control. Not in control of what we humans decide in our free will, but really. It gives me such a peace to think that God is in control. Because above all, I believe that God is love. Therefore, what he controls He controls in love, with love being his main focus of what he does. So I trust, and it makes me feel at peace. I actually feel peace when I think about it. It's a great thing. I get scared when I think of man having complete free will. Because what kind of mess would we make. There is no way the world would still be held together.

I wrestled with God yesterday, and it made my heart hurt. Things are happening. As Paul said in Galatians 4:19, "I am again in deep pains until Christ is formed within you." I rode the bus home from Gordon's house and really felt God twisting me on the inside. Or either, my insides were twisting because of the presence of God. I don't mean to make it sound like I had a holy moment, but it was certainly special.

A song that recently has really made me aware of the depravity of man is Matthew Good Band - The Fall of Man. It is certainly not a nice song, but it makes me think of the mind. the mind of the man and how foul it is. A line says, " you keep begging me to stop, but I was never that nice." and another that says, "stick to the plan, the fall of man."

Well this is my stop. Same time next week.

Ian