Edinburgh University

Now seems like a good time for a post.

I received a phone call from Edinburgh today saying that I had been rejected from the University of Edinburgh. This is news that has made me very sad today. I don't feel like working and I certainly don't feel like facing the future. I had so much on the line with that school. I won't say I had it all, but I was really looking forward to it.

So now what do I do?

Well I have not felt as bad as I thought. I feel that God is still greater than this and that this is part of his plan. I'm forced to concede myself to his will. Even though at this point it isn't something that I want to surrender to.

I'm still going to Edinburgh in September. Nothing was going to change that. Wait a second. I HOPE to go to Edinburgh this September. I don't want to be so prideful as to assume my future. That may be a reason for this whole thing. I'll go back and start back at Starbucks and go ahead and get my citizenship and certification as a TEFL instructor. This may actually move my plans to travel ahead an entire year.

I used to say to people who I asked that I felt that I was walking through a fog. I could see the immediate future but not much farther than that. Now I'm in the dark. I can't see but a few steps in front of me, but I've settled it to myself to be confident and content with my situation.

Ian

2 Great Things

There are two great things in life that I've really appreciated recently. The first is:

Tea

Tea is great, but not just for it's taste and health benefits. It's the ability of tea to be thoroughly enjoyed hot or cold. So if you leave your morning tea out too long it just becomes iced tea. If you get iced tea from a restaurant and leave it in your car accidentally, you can enjoy it later as hot tea. (well, if you live in Florida you can). I can pick up tea that's days old and it won't have gone flat or lost it's flavor. Iced tea can become watered down, but that doesn't seem to bother me like it does my friend Cliff. He gets mad.

The second thing is spots. By this I mean locations. You've got your spot, and you've got them everywhere. I have spots where I park my car at all the different restaurants. I have the spot where I like to stand and look over the restaurant. We spend our time moving from one self-determined spot to the next, which is fine by me.

I want you to listen

I would like everyone to listen to the song, "4 word letter" by mewithoutYou. I shed a tear over it yesterday, but that not what I wanna talk about today.

I felt contentment today. Yup, or at least the closest I think I've ever been. It was an incredible calm being completely satisfied in everything. I wanted for naught. It was actually kind of weird, but I just sat in it. Right there on I-4 traveling at about 60 miles an hour. It was quite an experience.

I'm once again taking a break from between my balloon shifts, and I thought I would write a little bit. Nothing else interesting to report today. So I'm off for now. Cheers.