Edinburgh University

Now seems like a good time for a post.

I received a phone call from Edinburgh today saying that I had been rejected from the University of Edinburgh. This is news that has made me very sad today. I don't feel like working and I certainly don't feel like facing the future. I had so much on the line with that school. I won't say I had it all, but I was really looking forward to it.

So now what do I do?

Well I have not felt as bad as I thought. I feel that God is still greater than this and that this is part of his plan. I'm forced to concede myself to his will. Even though at this point it isn't something that I want to surrender to.

I'm still going to Edinburgh in September. Nothing was going to change that. Wait a second. I HOPE to go to Edinburgh this September. I don't want to be so prideful as to assume my future. That may be a reason for this whole thing. I'll go back and start back at Starbucks and go ahead and get my citizenship and certification as a TEFL instructor. This may actually move my plans to travel ahead an entire year.

I used to say to people who I asked that I felt that I was walking through a fog. I could see the immediate future but not much farther than that. Now I'm in the dark. I can't see but a few steps in front of me, but I've settled it to myself to be confident and content with my situation.

Ian